Who Am I ?

Take my shirt off and stab me in the back 

I know that you don’t want me back,

It hurts and I surrender, my heart is cold drained and discarded

When I was young I never knew how life could be so cruel especially if you act the fool

But I cannot change my spots they are what I am what I have become, not a actor or a puppet not a thing not a muppet.

 I am me unique and different what makes me bad makes me good but this is my undoing my makeup is engrained 

I cannot match expectation for I am who I am and for this I am dammed and hanged on a rope around my neck that tightens to take my breath

 I belong to those who care those who want and love me there, but these are few but loyal to the end, my real, my real, my bestest friends

What my Daddy said to me

Free Will Prison

You can’t say this.

You can’t say that.

You can’t do this.

You can’t do that.

It’s a prison full of rats.

So please set me free.

The uk is a  prison.

It grinds the masses down.

You can’t even swear, or you will be shot down

I want to be free from this so call democracy

I want to say and do as I please 

Not be governed by rules that suffocate the life from me. 

I ain’t being ruled by no majority

Because I am unique and god made me to be free

If I wanna shout and let my hair down 

I should not be criticised by the mice that are hanging around

I hate the jealousy of people who declare that they have personality,

When it obviously isn’t there. 

I’m not here to please the masses

As long as I feel fulfilled

I will be an individual and live with a Free Will !

James Larkhill

Reflection in Isolation

Dawn breaks and the curtains of my faith are closed to a world of materialism.

Only on Sunday’s and when I am in need do my curtains open for a while

God gave me time, but I choose how to waste it.

What Jack has, Jill wants, what Jill has Jack wants. What God has is free, his love for you and me. 

Do I make the most of what is offered ? Is this forced isolation my chance to see ? 

Nothing matters when your ill. Not who’s done what and who’s got what. The more ill you get the more desperate the prayer. 

A rich man is less likely to pray for money than a poor man to pray for his basic needs. 

Wealth and Time spent in pointless activity is not an excuse to avoid Gods gift. 

Take heed fellow man it’s time to open up those curtains and take advantage of the offer that lurks within. 

A Regretful Farewell

My razor blade is cutting through my veins I can’t feel no pain, 

I am numb to the feeling 

You have torn my heart blistered my brain.

 It’s all in the cause of sanity

I thought you wouldn’t leave me, my vanity.  

The more you pulled the more I pushed knowing we should have pulled together.

 Rain falls in my isolation I am alone no love,  no sorrow just the memory of your scorn. 

Heaven what have I done I long to see the sun but alas the deed is done 

I was yours but now I’ve gone.

Together for Pleasure

  

Oh sweet taste of your inner most valley awakens the passion in my depressed existence.

My escape from reality is elated by the release in my mind and the release that ruptures an exquisite flow of your passion. 

Lust is greater with your love and reality is in the moment. Two hearts break when we are parted as flowers wilt without the rays of the sun.

Our love will not die if nurtured and caressed with sweet appreciation of what we have and what we share. 

If love is alive our lust will thrive and reinvent itself and grow until the valley of your pleasure is flowing with the warmth

of liquid ecstasy.

Court of Appeal Case on discrimination of unborn children who are screened out at full term.

 The Court case is on Tuesday 6th July and Wed 7th 2021. We hope this day will make a revolutionary mark on this world and the law! 

Let’s make sure that any unborn child born with Down syndrome is not discriminated against in the future. Equality for all unborn children. 

Hold Me

Hug me and feel me there,

Hug me because I really care.

Hug me when you feel blue,

Hug me for this love is true.

Bind with me and let’s entwine,

Bind with me it is divine.

Bind with me let us not part,

Bind with me this is the start.

Kiss me slowly with tender need,

Kiss me so I do concede.

Lets make love in all types of weather, 

Let’s make love forever  and ever. 

FLOWER QUEEN

 Snowdrop wave goodbye

Crocus raise your head 

Daffodil brighten the garden 

Tulip fill the bed. 

Oh flowers of spring set the scene

For when you have gone summer will begin.

Wither graciously 

Bow your heads

For the queen of summer 

Is here 

The Rose that is Red

A WORLD PUT ON HOLD

  

 

The elderly and vulnerable sit bewildered, lonely, trapped like prisoners in care home cells or in their houses where only they do dwell.

Teenage frolics and love tails told for years to come, lost to a clock that stopped life moving on.

The loss of work or work from home, this is a shock to many, it’s not our norm.

Masks hide the loneliness and mental turmoil that triggers anger and anguish, our patience wears thin.

Everyone’s normality is different, everything has changed. We grasp onto what we once knew and falsify reality in a dressed-up manikin, a way of comforting us, a way to cope.   

We are rocked by this fear of death, this fear of a shortened life, some continue regardless with an arrogance with the attitude, it won’t be me, but it could be you.

For the first time we are metric, two metres not two yards, but this is lost on many who seem to have no regard.

With no end in sight what will turn on the light? Is this a new norm, should we sit and wait, should we stride out and take our chances and leave selection to the law of fate?

If this was a war we would rise and fight, but we sit and ponder while the enemy gets stronger.

Let’s herd our immunity, mutate our defences from within, stop the waves washing up on our shores.

Let’s defend our future, what we love and know, battle to win our freedom and bring normality back.        

Take the handbrake of the clock, for we don’t want a world that is put on hold.

 

James Larkhill

In The Middle Of The Rainbow There Is No Gold

 

We met in the middle of the rainbow.

The colour was drained from your heart

Then the beat began and lightening struck,

as the music rocked and the disease crawled.

Be dammed into damnation by the infliction

and the cancer that devours.

Chocked by possession, hungry for love,

trapped by conspiracy and guilt from above.

Ice is melting in you veins.

As the atmosphere grows cold and

blood is drained, you constrain happiness,

live in fear, trust not a soul but keep your mind clear.

Bored by existence, you can't walk the right path,

sinking further into a cesspit of despair.

Alone and devoured in a world without care.

Will anybody miss you, when you're no longer there 

Your final downbeat breath is shallow

With no food to feed your mood,

One more quiet retreating heart beat

As your mission does conclude. 

          

The Battle of Isolation

Four walls all around, your freedom is denied.

Staying safe and staying sane is all you gotta do.

All you do is moan, while others dice with death for you

This is not a joy ride,

you're lucky to be alive.

Our Heroes fight the enemy, for hours at a time.

Many wars are fought, with guns and weaponry,

But this cursed enemy is invisible to you and me.

So fight the battle and stay apart,

for the angels do not want to capture no more of your hearts.

Together we should be binded, to fight to win this war .

Let's find an inner hunger, a strength within our core.

If there is no sacrifice, no victory will ensue.

But if the spirit of the nation is ignited

And our efforts are not in vain

The demon we are fighting 

will surely lose his game...  

Cheryl Bilsborrow and Heidi Crowter look to change the barbaric and selective Abortion Law

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CLOSED GATE

The thought of death scares me as I wait here for my fate.

The days that are behind me anger me today

For all I've done is waste my time not doing what I should.
I never thought my days would come and go as quickly as the rain

I've searched within my mind to find my twisted road, but the journey through my mind is misted by the
signals from my soul.

God free my vision from these chains unlock my destiny
I need a clue, I need a sign, please open my closed gate.

BBC BROADCAST ROLL IT UP TWO WEEKS RUNNING

Phenakite currently #49 in the European Hot disc country chart gets second week play on the BBC weekly Country show.

Keep downloading folks (*_*)

PHENAKITE ROLL IT UP RELEASED

ROLL IT UP - RELEASED AND AVAILABLE ON ALL GOOD DOWNLOAD SITES SUCH AS SPOTIFY, APPLE MUSIC, GOOGLE, AMAZON, CD BABY.

Phenakite - Roll it up 

.https://open.spotify.com/album/1rHo1pyV3nVTfdeoZE1PWu


https://www.amazon.co.uk/s?k=Phenakite&i=digital-music&search-type=ss&ref=ntt_srch_drd_B00BCPDZL8

Phenakite track being broadcast on BBC and CMR Nashville

Phenakite's new track "Roll it up"  played on the BBC Country shows on BBC radio Lancashire and Merseyside https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p07smc09

This follows regular plays on Europe's number 1 country radio station CMR Nashville.

Track released on 10/12/2019

PHENAKITE NEW RELEASE - ROLL IT UP - 10/12/2019

PHENAKITE GO COUNTRY WITH THEIR 8TH ORIGINAL SINGLE - ROLL IT UP. 

The track is being played on Redio CMR Europes number 1 country music station http://www.cmrnashville.com/


"ONCE YOU HEAR IT YOU WILL BE HUMMING IT ALL DAY "


Written by David Bilsborrow   (James Larkhill) and Cheryl Bilsborrow (Lady Phenakite) https://www.facebook.com/Phenakite/  - Pheankite vocalist.

Produced by Dan Moores

NEW OLD SCHOOL HOUSE RELEASE - ANOTHER DAY BY PHENAKITE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjE0D3qa5EM&list=OLAK5uy_m-BZi6fjmCkRNQaUmWn7GZ0kDFBBI0Ox0

PHENAKITE - NEW RELEASE EYES OF SATISFACTION

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PlsnDAcxRY&fbclid=IwAR2AVj_K_LgEvGAOVT_weZrQHm5OeAMCX8vbwmSnq5PNKjgJ-LzuB-SJzrE

Time Doesn’t Matter

We got no clock, we have no time,

We got no time to breathe,

We got no time to regret, no time to think, no time to sweat.

Let’s take a moment let’s not forget what time we wasted  

What time we took to build our life debt

Pay back our time lord, for the time we did waste

Lazing in the sunshine, or in worthless quest.

Dreaming of greatness, richness and bounty

Down town causing chaos, singing in the rain

Worrying for days and drinking to forget

Youth and Growing old days striving to make ends meet

Queuing in lines patiently , forever and a day

We have spent all our time gold, and our purse is empty

We are ready for the clock to stop and tick no more

Where we are going time does not matter

Spring summer day and night     

Sunshine and clouds water and light

Whatever the time, the time is right.